Monday, October 02, 2006

it's almost here!

and before you know it, we're into october! my final month in the army! muaahahahahaha freedom!!

with this freedom comes more stuff to get stressed over though.. gotta get the portfolio into shape, find myself a job, earn some money, buy the stuff i wanna buy, buy the stuff my family wants to buy... it's a huge world out there, and it's time to take it all in..

of course there's still time for enjoyment though.. 360 nights will continue, with shotguns and soon, some brawling goodness with smackdown vs raw 2007! and gears of war and rainbow six vegas and nhl 07 and omg omg there's too many..

and then, come 9th november, UNLEASH THE FURY with Yngwie Malmsteen's Rising Force at Fort Canning Park!! tickets available at SISTIC!
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Monday, September 25, 2006

oops

heh i won't deny it, with all this extra free time i'm getting from clearing all my leave before i get out of the army, i've been even more busy doing my own stuff.. =P

some new xbox 360 games just released, and that's what's taking up the bulk of my time..

first up is Test Drive Unlimited, which has proven to be a really addictive game.. driving around Hawaii in your muscle car just taking in the scenery, with Ritchie Blackmore playing on the custom playlist is just uhh.. orgasmic. if there is such a word.. lol

next would be the Godfather, which has been out for awhile, but only just released on the xbox 360.. as the advertisment says.. playing the bad guy has never looked so good... mmmmm

last but not least, just picked up a new webcam from funan yesterday! muaahahahah
and to those of you out there, you know who you are, no it's not for any form of personal or sexual gratification. haha buggers.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

crossroads

last friday, we finally got down to a studio for a short afternoon of jamming. it was in clarke quay, and although small, it was quite cosy, and totally fun. finishing at about 5pm with nothing to do other than wait for night to arrive, walking around town aimlessly seemed the right thing to do.

and so we ended up at far east plaza for dinner, wheelock place's isetan supermarket for a few stalks of fresh celery (it was a dare..), and then finally mcdonald's at forum, just opposite orchard towers, which would be our target destination for the night.

no. we are not into transvestites.

turned out that within orchard towers was this blues and rock and roll bar called crossroads, and after listening to the live bands there, i'd say they're quite good.. worth another visit, probably sometime this week. just a matter of getting people to brave the trannys and get into the bar.. but that's gonna be tough. oh well.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

the journey

it's almost been a year since i first bought my Ibanez Gio guitar and started picking up music. at my current state, there's still lots of room for improvement, and i wish i had picked up music a lot earlier in my life, as it can be such an enjoyable thing. gloomy early mornings can be spiced up playing a bit of the blues.. hot lazy afternoons spent playing along with some reggae and surf music.. and quiet nights, to the horror of my neighbours, is the time for rock and metal!

i've still got a long way to go though, and the journey is never-ending. there's always something new to learn, be it picking up a new technique, a new style of music, a new song perhaps. i really should have gotten started earlier, back then when my mom used to tell me how my grand dad could pick up just about any instrument and learn it on his own, unlike now when we have the internet - an infinite source of information. it still eludes me how he did it though.. the guitar, the accordion, the saxophone, the harmonica, and some others that i can't remember now.

and then there was my dad, who picked up the guitar, and also learnt how to play it on his own. listening to any song, he could tell what key it was in, and he could play it by ear. he later joined my grand dad in forming a small band back in their little kampung town in Malaysia, where everyone knew everyone. they would play on stage and the people, being just simple folk, would throw stuff like sweets and flowers onto the stage in appreciation and applause. they were truely a hit. my grand dad later gave us the accordion, as some sort of present, and probably hoping that his grand sons would one day take up music instead of joining the fast growing hobby of spending countless hours playing video games and watching TV.

my dad later came here to Singapore to find work, and joined the Air Force, where he would also form a band with his colleagues. they called it the fitting name of Air Force One. they would soon become just about one of the best bands the SAF had seen, winning multiple awards and prizes at Family Day events and the like. there was once when their band was instantly disqualified at an event because, in the judges' words, "you're all too good."

now, it is my turn, and like i said, it has been almost a year since i bought my first guitar. now, i'm into my second - the Fender Stratocaster. looking back on when i just started, i think i have come a long way, but there is still a lot more that i hope to achieve. i remember my first day with my guitar, attempting to do the chromatic scale with little success.. now it is nothing but a simple warm up for the fingers before i go into the practice propers. guitar solos performed by Ritchie Blackmore formerly of Deep Purple, Rainbow, and now Blackmore's Night are slowly getting easier to perform, and where music theory is concerned, progressions and notes are starting to get very easy to identify.

i should have taken this up a lot earlier. my dad has since stopped playing in any band, but picks up his acoustic very occasionally to just play something simple but still, pleasing to the ear. maybe one day i might have the same honour he had, of playing alongside my own dad.

Monday, August 14, 2006

freedom awaits

it's been almost a week since NDP ended, and yess that milestone marks the start of my wait to ultimate freedom! beginning to clear most of my leave now, especially in september and october, and finally on the 18th of october, i'll get out of the army.

time to start work on the portfolio.. and start to seriously practise on the guitar as well. been listening to a lot of blues lately.. seems to catch my attention just as well as rock and metal. maybe i could start working on some fusion shit.. hmmm..

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

gloomy 9th of August

so today is the big day.. the day that all of us have been wasting away our saturdays for.. our national day parade, and it looks to be a gloomy one. the skies look dark, and the weather forecasts predict showers..

it had better not rain though. if there's anything worse than being forced to take part in the god damned show, it's being forced to come back another day to do it again. long have i bitched about what a huge waste of time this parade is, and in no way am i wasting another day in the name of the god damned national day parade.

after this, freedom awaits! lots of leave to clear this year, not to mention all the off days we'll get from having to participate in ndp. mmm yess.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Prelude to the Preview to the Pain.

and so tomorrow's the big day, or at least one of the big days. the national day parade preview! we've been training long and hard for this one, although "long" could have been a lot shorter if not for some stupid people as described in my earlier posts.

i won't deny it, i used to hate being in the damned ndp. to me, it was just a total waste of time. i could have been out there doing something more constructive. but somehow, i don't feel all that hate anymore. maybe i just grew numb to it, or it could be something else. there's just some feeling about being out there in front of 60,000 people.

the adrenaline.

the euphoria.

the thoughts of what might happen if we screwed our segment up.

there's something magnificent about being out there alright.



on other notes, i've decided that some feelings are not meant to be contained for long, no matter how deep you bury them. they just come crawling back out, urging you to do something to satisfy their thirst. this week, i gave in to those feelings. it will most probably end up in suicidal heartaches and pain, but it's not the end result that really counts sometimes. sometimes, the moment is good enough. but whether those moments will be happy for both sides is quite questionable.

"Can't Let You Go" performed by Ritchie Blackmore's Rainbow.

Monday, July 24, 2006

reunion

yes! and finally we had that long-awaited little reunion barbeque at theHaz's place. well it's not the usual chalet thing where we fork out shitloads of cash each.. but the hdb thing wasn't really a bad thing. except for hazrul's "friends" making a whole lotta noise with their guitars and singing.. =P

the turn out was quite good.. good to see people like azad and ck again after such a long time. we should have get-togethers like this more often. maybe lunches or dinners.

all in all, it was a fun event, with some birthday celebrations.. (some a month late in fact) not to mention the little xbox party we had after that.. although some of us were just too stoned to even hold a controller. we'll have one more gathering soon i guess, hmm maybe a trip to somewhere... yesss.. we'll see..

Saturday, July 15, 2006

acts of stupidity

going to the stadium every saturday for those god damned NDP rehearsals is fine by me, provided you do it smart. but NO! the army, in all its wisdom, does it with their brains (if they have any) in their asses.

ever since we moved our rehearsals to the stadium on saturdays, life hasn't been good. reporting to the stadium at 10.45AM so that we can eat lunch at 12pm, then waiting all the way till about 4pm to eat dinner, then waiting till about 6pm before our segment starts = total fucking stupidity/dumbness/look-up-stupidity-in-the-thesaurus-and-insert-here.

whether i eat my lunch or not before the fucking rehearsals isn't going to affect my performance. it's a fact. and it's not like the lunch they provide is all that healthy either. i think it would do me more good to stay home and eat my mom's magnificent cooking. if they wanted to ensure that we at least ate their lousy dinners, they could just ask us to come in at maybe 3pm in the afternoon, although that's still a long fucking wait. but it's still better than coming in at 10.45 and rotting our asses off in the indoor stadium for 8 FUCKING HOURS before we do anything constructive.

oh speaking of doing constructive things. while everyone's going about their own stuff (the other organisations do things the smart way. they come in at the right time rehearse), we're just sitting there like fucking idiots. so what do people do? they see trash lying around, and they see us. next moment, we're clearing up the trash in the indoor stadium. not our trash. their trash. the motherfuckers. it's almost as if we're called in early just to clear up trash.

the bastards who are responsible will pay for this. damn you sons of bitches, damn you motherfuckers, damn you all!! damn the fucking national day parade!!!

National Day Parade = 9th of August = A day in Singapore when everyone comes together as if they were the best of friends, although they never really are, considering how self-centred everyone seems to be when it comes to other daily acts of life. e.g. boarding the MRT trains - nobody ever gives way. getting seats on the buses - 1 in about 50 give up their seats to the needy. fighting for the nation in times of need - this has yet to be proven, but i'm guessing about 90% of the people who turn up at the NDP in all their patriotic glory will run with their tails between their legs in the event of a major catastrophe.

Monday, July 03, 2006

behold the almighty

took some time off the new guitar to take some pictures of it! here it is! behold the Fender Stratocaster HSS (with Floyd Rose Locking Tremolo)!

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The Fender Stratocaster.

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The Stratocaster's Headstock.

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The Floyd Rose Bridge.

aftermath (once more)

and once again another day at the stadium has passed, and not a thing has changed in our ridiculous schedule there.. reporting at 10am just to wait for lunch at 12.30.. then going in for some practice at 12.45 till 1.45.. then waiting all the way till about 6.20, enter again, do our stuff ONCE, and then get out and call it a day.. simply ridiculous.

but anyway, as most of us know, the Swee Lee Music Company mid-year sale at Bras Basah Complex was on the 1st of July.. only recently in fact. and so i thought that maybe going there at 6pm the previous day might have been a good idea as the queue would be building up. shocking though, as the queue was already up to the escalator when i got there at 6. for god's sake the shop's still god damned open, and you're queueing outside already? god damned singaporeans.

so i decided to queue along with alf.. as both of us were intent on getting our new guitars and some other stuff.. i must say that was one of the longest nights i've ever had the displeasure of enduring. luckily seetoh came in at 2am to join in the fun, with effects pedals on his buy list. and so it went on.. till about 7.30.. the door opens! the staff go in!! and everyone stands up! so we had no choice but to stand up too, if we wanted to maintain our place in the queue.. the idiots!! little did we know that we would be standing till about10 before we even got to enter the shop..

and finally, we all got in, muscled our way to our guitars, grabbed them before anyone did, and headed for the queue.. now the most screwed up thing about sales like these is that everyone buys tons of stuff.. so here we were queuing to pay in a line of about 30 people, and everyone's paying for shitloads of stuff.. another 2 hours of queuing.. JUST TO PAY.

but anyway, at the end of the day, i ended up with my fender stratocaster, alf got his fender highway 1 stratocaster, and seetoh got his pedals.. so all's well.. after about 18 hours... but i guess it was worth it.. considering that i managed to pick up my new prized guitar.. mmmmm yesss with a floyd rose bridge too.... mmmm...

the Fender Standard Stratocaster HSS with the Floyd Rose Locking Tremolo.
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my precioussssss.....

Monday, June 26, 2006

through the silence, it comes.

seeing that i'm getting so many days out of camp, doing this national day parade thing isn't actually so bad.. i even get to enjoy the cheaper life of going out on mondays! for example, movie tickets are a fraction of their weekend prices, and lots more buffets are available on weekdays!

just had sakae sushi with the usual gang today.. and of course, we all swore not to eat sushi again for about a year from now.. it's just not something that you can eat every week or month.. there's just something about it...

the problem now is, with all this free time, i've had a lot of chances to just stone in my chair. stoning in my chair, however, makes me ponder.. and then i think back about everything that has ever happened in my life.. and then it whispers.. it starts haunting me.. something i had let go of quite a long time ago. i thought i had let my feelings for her go off in the wind, never to be heard of again. but now the winds have changed, and i feel once more.

but of course there's nothing i can do, and there's nothing i will do. it's just not right for me to keep doing and not gaining.. or so it seemed that way..

Friday, June 23, 2006

the return of the king.

ok maybe king's a bit of an egotistical thing there but what the hell.. you can't love others without loving yourself eh.

my last post as it seems was more than 2 months ago.. and somehow after that i just kind of lost the mood to post here, not to mention do anything else.. i don't know why.. must have been all the god damned national day parade shit taking up my time, but that's just excuses. i think i just didn't have anything to say, with all the boring days that i spend in camp doing nothing.. urrgghh.

and so it goes that a few days ago, i remembered that this little space existed, and i decided to post something just to show you good people that i'm still alive. problem now is that it's kind of hard to be alive. national day parade (more like a parade of slavery to the nation) rehearsals are becoming more frequent, and i have to spend entire saturdays at the fucking national stadium. saturdays!! SATURDAYS! i find it hard to imagine that the organisers of the biggest event in the country cannot book the stadium on weekdays, but have to settle for weekends instead. outrageous.

the only good thing about that is we get our mondays off. but who else gets their mondays off?! no one! so i'm stuck at home with really almost no one to get out with on mondays. of course sunday's always an option, but somehow i tend to feel lazy on sundays. ok fine that's my fault, but i don't think i'm the only lazy one on sundays anyway.

well anyway, it's a friday, and i think i should get off my own sorry self-pitying ass and do something. it's been some time since i had a good coffee out there. yes it's time..

Sunday, April 09, 2006

"just when i thought i was out, they pull me back in.."

after surviving an entire week of combat survival training, i thought i was going to be a free man.. but no.. the army has more things in store for me.. the bastards...

first they had to take away my weekdays. now, they even want my weekends!! all for the sake of god damned NDP. i don't see the point of arranging such a spectacular show every year for the people of this country when probably half of them will run for their lives with their tails between their legs in the event of a true catastrophe.

well anyway, what i meant by my weekends being taken up is that from now till probably august, you're not gonna be seeing much of me because i'll be stuck at some place setting up a water point just to make sure the potential performers of NDP don't go thirsty. if luck is on my side, maybe it'll only take up half the saturday and i'll be able to get out after that..

we'll see..

Sunday, April 02, 2006

and they all came crashing down

i was in camp earlier this week when a friend came along to tell me that he had received a letter in his mail from the government saying that he was going to get $900 in cold hard cash because of the positive growth of our country's economy. i was stunned at this of course, and called home immediately to check it out, and what do you know! $700 is coming my way, and the same too for my older brother! now that takes a huge load off the savings for the xbox 360.. isn't it amazing what this government does for you as the elections get closer and closer...

but on other notes, i visited the TP design school diploma show yesterday, and had quite a chat with some of my former lecturers, who are more or less now my mentors in deciding for the future.. LOL. well anyway, we sat down to a cup of coffee with one of them and received another of his enlightening talks. all of a sudden, the sun that was blazing so brightly in my future decided to come crashing down to earth, and now i'm in the dark. clueless as to what to do, and where to go after i leave the army.

NTU's school of design was where i was heading, but it seems now that it might not be a good idea because of the kind of people there. bunch of snobbish ignorant bastards it seems. people who think that singapore is a third world country and that they're the only way that singapore's gonna get lifted and saved out of it. now don't get me wrong they're probably skilled and talented in their own way, but if someone maintains such an arrogant attitude towards the country, how are the local students going to fare against the foreign ones? people are biased by default. it's just how biased you can be, and if you have a mindset like that, you can be god damned biased alright.

now the problem is where to go, and what to do. sheridan college in canada that suwandi is planning to go for seems like a very good school by international standards, but it's expensive. setting up a small company here with theFamily could be a good idea provided we make it big some day.. and then again just trying to get noticed with a good short film might bring about a miracle. options options.. the future's getting darker everyday...

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Don't Talk To Strangers

Don't talk to strangers,
Cause they're only there to do you harm.
Don't write in starlight,
Cause the words may come out real.

Don't hide in doorways,
You may find the key that opens up your soul.
Don't go to Heaven,
Cause it's really only Hell.

Don't smell the flowers,
They're an evil drug to make you lose your mind.
Don't dream of women,
Cause they'll only bring you down.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

dawn of victory

there's nothing better than having a long weekend when you know that you're stuck in the army, and this weekend just happens to be one! heh all thanks to our triumph over the rest of the brigade in the brigade olympics last friday.. and to top it all off, friday was payday!

and so there was stuff to do during the weekend.. have money will travel, they say.. went with one of the army dudes to peninsula to look for a budget guitar package for him, after which me, theHaz, and the dog had some good coffee at TCC.. been a long time since we chilled like that.. a month in fact.. all thanks to theHaz not coming out for such a long time. but wow the butter rum raisin frappe.. yummyyy....

on other notes, the xbox 360 arrives today.. it's time to save up.. next pay day, i'll get it yessss....

and some of you may be wondering what this Warriors of the World United song i've been talking about is all about.. well here's the link if you're interested.. hehe it's got power, it's got might, and it's heavy metal!

Manowar!!

Sunday, February 26, 2006

Sad But True

just had supper with an old friend i got to know since secondary school. we went different paths after that though - he went to a junior college and i headed for a polytechnic.. but that's not the point. he's one of the few secondary school mates that i still keep in touch with, and he's seen me go through some shit, i've seen him go through some shit, and maybe we've gone through some shit together. (like the damned 4 years of suffering in SJI.) well anyway, that's not the point.

the point is, that he recently got himself hooked up with this girl. foreign blood too i must say. french. and so i was thinking that's pretty much quite a nice thing. i've been single and enjoying life on my own for as long as i can remember, but every now and then, there's this little lingering feeling for someone. but that's not the point either. now the reason he called me out to supper was because suddenly he's pissed at his significant other, or he had just pissed her off also. either way, he was complaining. complaining about how terrible life was to suddenly be with someone again.. about how all these commitments suddenly come in once more.

that made me think. how much of my time am i willing to devote to someone? we get lonely during our darkest days, but being with someone sometimes makes our brightest days darker. heh not all the time, but yeah sometimes commitment is a bitch. sometimes you just want to be on your own. in the end, it's probably about having more good days than bad ones, and choosing to be single or attached could very well change that result.

ponder ponder ponder.

in the meantime however, it's back to something that definitely made my days brighter.

my good old Ibanez Gio. =)

Friday, February 17, 2006

warriors of the world united

woohooo! just had a 3-day exercise this week at lim chu kang training area.. 18 of us were providing support for the 3rd guards battalion, playing as their enemies to prepare them for their upcoming proficiency test..

since i enlisted in the army, fire movement has never been so fun. heh we were donning this new vest that had sensors all over it, with a transmitter also attached to our rifle, which made the whole thing like some large scale laserquest game. and it was good fun, considering that 18 of us could wipe out an entire company in the battalion.

and to top it all off, we had tons of ammo to use, so it was all just happy machine gunning for all of us. it was tiring rushing up the hill through the waist high vegetation, but at least we didn't have to worry about getting our elbows or knees grazed when we landed as the grass was so thick it could cushion a fall. in the end, we overran the objective, but we were still declared the losers anyway cos the enemies are never supposed to win in an exercise.. sad but true.

and of course, there was no better war song to accompany the brothers of metal into battle than Manowar's Warriors of the World United! go get it people! you'll feel the rush!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

sunday blues

and so my holidays have come to an end, and it's time to book in once more. it was a nice long holiday though.. at least i did something meaningful like bothering to go back and visit my relatives in malaysia after 4 long years. now i wish i had gone back every year.

we've moved into february now, and now begins the crucial countdown to the day i get back my freedom. 8 more months and 21 days! oh please do hurry.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

the year of the dog

just got home a few hours ago from my new year holidays.. heh went visiting all the way up north in Taiping, Malaysia, the place where both my parents were from. most, if not all of my relatives are still there, which makes visiting really convenient, especially since it's such a small town.

I haven't been back for as long as i can remember now.. about 4 years i think.. and damn it sure felt good to be there once more. the food, the people, the super relaxed laid back lifestyle.. everyone just seems to know everyone there..

but then again that's not the point. the point is that i managed to see my extended family again after 4 long years, and it feels good. damn i gotta go back more often.

Sunday, January 15, 2006

another beginning

and so i decided that i had to do something that has more meaning in my life.

yesterday, i bought my very own, first electric guitar, with my very own, first amp. don't ask me why, but i just felt that it was about time i picked up an instrument and seriously learnt how to play it well. and since i've always been a fan of classical rock, hard rock, blah blah blah, in which the guitars play an exceptional part in uplifting the songs, i decided to settle for one.

visited swee lee with alfred, merv and suwandi yesterday.. it was huge, and there were choices. took awhile to decide on which guitar to get.. but after lots of talking with alf and the salesperson about which guitar does what, what sound it produces, what song it plays better, i decided to settle for a simple Ibanez. nothing flashy.. just a simple black one.. good for starters.. =)

so here it is. my new year resolution for this year - pick up an instrument and learn to play it fluently, and nothing else matters.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Who Will Stop The Rain

it's tuesday, it's a public holiday, and greetings to all my muslim friends out there who happen to be reading this.

now i booked out last friday, knowing it was going to be a long weekend.. 4 days of holiday till i had to book in again! i thought i was going to enjoy myself.. but the god damned weather hasn't exactly been nice recently. where the hell did all this water come from?! it rained every single day since i booked out! now don't get me wrong, i don't blame the weather or nature or whatever you might call it for this. once again, i blame the army. the bastards who take this country's sons away from their mothers to serve and slave for 2 years. (in my case 2 years and 2 months). no it's not their fault that it's been raining so dreadfully, but it certainly is their bloody fault that i have to look forward to weekends, instead of having the rightful freedom of going out whenever i want to. and as if taking us away from our normal lives wasn't bad enough, they think that by paying us $500+ a month, we can survive?! THIS IS FUCKING OPPRESSION. SLAVERY. hell, even maids earn more working in households.

AND as if all that wasn't bad enough, the people they put in charge of the army are needless to say, fuckers. fuckers who sit by and tell others what to do while they enjoy getting fat, splurging the money that is so rightfully ours. now i don't mean to say that everyone in the army is a fat ass, but there are some.. *cough cough* BRC 7 SIB *cough cough* these people are the epitome of fucker. i cannot think of any word powerfully bad enough to describe the people running this company. and of course, i happen to be serving under these people.

well anyway, it's a public holiday as i said earlier, so let's not ruin the mood. yeah i'm booking in tonight.. so what mood is there to talk about. but i did realise one thing. the closer you are to the end of these 2 years of servitude, the more and more irritated you get by it. you just want out. you just want to stop doing anything for them.

I WANT OUT!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

a new year.

and so i transitioned into another year, alive, well, and rather bored. well then again not really. my new year's eve was spent around town shopping with merv and suwandi.. heh quite interesting to say the least.. and then we went for some battlefield vietnam at paradiz.. to top it all off, we had quite a bit of a war in the last level of serious sam, which we never finished cos it was nearing midnight, and we didn't wanna miss the celebrations.

and so we got out of the place at 11.30 and rushed to the heart of town, not before arming ourselves with 8 cans of the happy sprays. turned out that the black sea was out in even greater numbers than before. this time, we couldn't even muscle our way to the middle of taka.. had to settle for the stretch in front of cineleisure and the meritus mandarin.. but that was good enough

managed to bang some people up pretty good.. lol and merv almost slipped and fell on all the shit that was already on the floor.. it all died down in awhile.. we washed ourselves up at cineleisure and then had a meal at long john's.. the rest of the night.. is just plain history. walking.. walking.. and more aimless walking...

this year, i turned 21. and most people make a big fuss about their 21st birthday.. i sure as hell didn't, but somehow, as i moved on into 2006, i did look back on all the good and bad times that is my life. i miss them all. even the bad times. now that practically everyone i know has become a working adult, i think we'll all be missing something that we know only as our childhood. the times when we could do anything we wanted without a worry in the world, knowing that we would always get away with it.. late nights in the studio, guns, masterplans, buns, suffering under suwandi at the gym, swimming, coffee breaks at the canteen..

those were the days..