through the silence, it comes.

seeing that i'm getting so many days out of camp, doing this national day parade thing isn't actually so bad.. i even get to enjoy the cheaper life of going out on mondays! for example, movie tickets are a fraction of their weekend prices, and lots more buffets are available on weekdays!

just had sakae sushi with the usual gang today.. and of course, we all swore not to eat sushi again for about a year from now.. it's just not something that you can eat every week or month.. there's just something about it...

the problem now is, with all this free time, i've had a lot of chances to just stone in my chair. stoning in my chair, however, makes me ponder.. and then i think back about everything that has ever happened in my life.. and then it whispers.. it starts haunting me.. something i had let go of quite a long time ago. i thought i had let my feelings for her go off in the wind, never to be heard of again. but now the winds have changed, and i feel once more.

but of course there's nothing i can do, and there's nothing i will do. it's just not right for me to keep doing and not gaining.. or so it seemed that way..