and they all came crashing down

i was in camp earlier this week when a friend came along to tell me that he had received a letter in his mail from the government saying that he was going to get $900 in cold hard cash because of the positive growth of our country's economy. i was stunned at this of course, and called home immediately to check it out, and what do you know! $700 is coming my way, and the same too for my older brother! now that takes a huge load off the savings for the xbox 360.. isn't it amazing what this government does for you as the elections get closer and closer...

but on other notes, i visited the TP design school diploma show yesterday, and had quite a chat with some of my former lecturers, who are more or less now my mentors in deciding for the future.. LOL. well anyway, we sat down to a cup of coffee with one of them and received another of his enlightening talks. all of a sudden, the sun that was blazing so brightly in my future decided to come crashing down to earth, and now i'm in the dark. clueless as to what to do, and where to go after i leave the army.

NTU's school of design was where i was heading, but it seems now that it might not be a good idea because of the kind of people there. bunch of snobbish ignorant bastards it seems. people who think that singapore is a third world country and that they're the only way that singapore's gonna get lifted and saved out of it. now don't get me wrong they're probably skilled and talented in their own way, but if someone maintains such an arrogant attitude towards the country, how are the local students going to fare against the foreign ones? people are biased by default. it's just how biased you can be, and if you have a mindset like that, you can be god damned biased alright.

now the problem is where to go, and what to do. sheridan college in canada that suwandi is planning to go for seems like a very good school by international standards, but it's expensive. setting up a small company here with theFamily could be a good idea provided we make it big some day.. and then again just trying to get noticed with a good short film might bring about a miracle. options options.. the future's getting darker everyday...