Any Means Necessary!

Lately I've been spending so much time trying to form up my band, thinking of ways to make it big, doing mainstream and crowd-pleasing stuff to ensure survivability, that I think I kind of lost touch with myself in the process. I didn't realise this until one fine day, a good friend, whom I also jammed with quite a bit, whom I even taught guitar to, sent me a message about the latest album from Hammerfall.

It had been some time since I listened to metal, and I decided to just give it a listen, and as miraculously as the flowers popping out of the desert after a storm, I suddenly felt alive again! I usually would take some time to get the hang of the mainstream crap that we had been doing, but it was different for this little return to metal. I feel alive when I play the music I love, and it is the very reason I even play.

I think I've found the way, and while it may not be pleasing to most ears, at least I'm playing what I truly want to play! Make no mistake, I'll still do that mainstream shit, but nothing makes me get into the music more than metal!

And so, I bring you:

Any Means Necessary by Hammerfall!!

it don't beat the way it used to.

I've come to realise that I am uncannily bad at keeping my attention on multiple things at once. If I'm really preoccupied with something, the rest of my world could be sinking around me and I wouldn't know, which is why I've been occupying myself with my new band recently, kind of like putting a natural setback to good use. Not only that, penning down new ideas and thoughts for those elusive tunes in my head takes up quite a bit of time as well. As much as I tell myself to move though, I can't help but make that little detour when heading to the office, with the tiny little hope that maybe some day, something might happen. I find myself holding my breath as I come round the corner, but it's just a strange feeling, kind of like yearning for something, but at the same time just dreading it all.

Well at least I can more or less say that I came out of this slightly changed. Culled a number of bad habits, took on a few new but harmless ones, but all in all, I think I came out better, just missing something.

I guess it's time to forget.

More listlessness.

Things have been pretty uneventful lately. Work has been the same old same old, and now that I literally have to drag myself to work everyday cos there's hardly anything to look forward to anymore, I think I've seen better days.

The days shortly after CNY were a mix of dilemma, uncertainty, and confusion. Had some trouble with a little gift that I had acquired for someone important. Problem is there was a chance this gift might have bounced back in the following days after that, and I was on the verge of taking it back just to cause less of a headache to everyone, but at the same time I wouldn't have felt very good about it. Now that the issue has seemingly been settled, I still feel bad for having my way. And no, I don't ask for anything in return.

My Grassroots stratocaster arrived yesterday. First time playing on a scalloped fretboard, and although it's like playing on the edges of 6 knives, I'm actually starting to like it. Sounds quite good on overdrive as well.

Random: Fierce loyalty may be one of my strong points, but it may very well also be my downfall.

Now what?