Grow Up.

Today, for the very first time in close to two and a half years, I headed back to the office on my off day to help out. Needless to say, everyone was stunned to see my name on the board, listed under the category of "OT". LOL. The extra money has never enticed me, and unless they decide to give me triple of my pay for coming back, I don't think it ever will. I went back today simply because I knew that for the boss to come calling me in the morning for help, it had to be really bad, for they would usually not even think about trying to recall the officer named Stanley. Anyway, it was a quick four hours before I was done, and it all seemed to pass in a relatively short span of time.

Dinner with Elise was the programme for the night, as she was just about finishing up some stuff in her new role as Projects Officer for the upcoming launch of our oh-so-godly system. Elise never fails to cheer me up with all her rubbish. For a small little entity, she sure makes a hell lot of noise.. Always hyped up, always with an opinion, always there. The little one can get a little lost though. Had to "Morpheus" her to Clarke Quay from Funan as she was clueless about the way. LOL.

It was supposed to be Ramen for dinner, but after looking at the menu, we realised we might as well be better off eating Ramen at any normal coffeeshop, which led us to Kyomomoyama on the same floor, and that proved a very neat choice! Serving sizes were huge, a little too huge, and the food was good too! My soda tasted a little more like just syrup with ice though. Gosh instant sugar rush.


Michelle/Elise. Whatever you might want to call her, her constant chirping never fails to brighten up your day!


A bit of an overload, perhaps?


By the river.

As we were sitting on the river bank just chatting about random office stuff, she mentioned that I should apply for that position. Not my kind of stuff I must say. There have been a number of people recently who have been taking up more important and noble roles, and I feel that these people are good choices and have what it takes to lead. I know that I myself would have no problems working with or leading a bunch of people, but purposely doing shit to get noticed just isn't my way of earning it. I'd rather let my own actions speak for themselves, because more often than not when you try too hard, you just end up falling flat on your face.

Which brings us to something else. Leadership. You either are cut out for it, or you're not. If you're not made for it, there are certain things you can do to build yourself up, or at least to mask your incompetency. No matter how much you try though, if you do not grow up, if you do not start behaving like an adult, much less a leader, if you do not stop being childish, if you do not stop bawling over shit that people can't be bothered about, if you do not start dressing right, NO ONE is going to take you seriously, and no one is going to give a flying fuck about you. That might very much explain all those failed attempts recently aye? Like I said, if you address these problems, you might stand a chance against someone who was born to lead. The sad truth is that usually those that are capable do not feel a need to prove themselves to anyone, hence they take the back seat and let those that have something to prove make a mockery of themselves. I know where I stand, and I know what I'm capable of, and I don't need to prove it. It is, however, getting increasingly difficult to tolerate the shortcomings of those that are trying a little too hard.